AChaoticMess

I always told you to stop drinking But I couldn't ever get you thinking About what would happen if you didn't stop And now my minds about to pop You were out in the bar till early in the morning And day by day there's even more I'm learning You came home and crashed, fell asleep in a snap While the rest of us were somewhere else taking a nap Then all of the sudden the neighbors saw flames They ran down there, I couldn't tell you their names They looked in your room, but you weren't there The firemen came and put the fire out When we seen the trailer we began to cry and shout The ashes everywhere, the smell of fire still strong W

Mom, I just can't take it, I can't go on living like this. I've tried so hard to do what you want, but every time I miss. I already know life's been hard on you. But please don't forget I've been there too. I was by your side through most of the pain. I just don't understand what you expect to gain. When we fight and argue and bring up the past. Then we try to make up and do at last. But whats the point when it's all gonna happen again. And we keep visiting that place we've already been. I know we have trouble but we can get through. Because no matter how much we fight, I'll always love you.

I fell so hard, so deep into a love I want to keep. With no feelings to return something for which I yearn. His love is what I long for instead of just a closed door. But the pain is starting to fade and his point has been made. Our love will never be now mine is just a memory. But the scars still run deep from which the blood does still seep. And those words do still burn as the thoughts in my head turn. I see the coldness in his eyes as he tells me all his lies. But without him I'd be lost so now I must pay the cost. As I scarafice my heart just to play the part

Have you ever been to the point that you think life's not worth living? When you feel like everyone you love has turned their back on you. You get these thoughts in the back of your head that tell you of ways to end all of your pain and suffering. All you want is a way out. Thats all I want is a way to make the pain go away. To stop myself from getting hurt anymore. I go through life scared, scared of losing everything like so many times before. Afraid of losing everything that I've got and the one thing I need. That's what scares me the most. Nothing is like it used to be. We don't get along like before. Sometimes I get scared that hes gonna

Passion unknown to most Got me tied to the bed post Getting what I desire Sets my body on fire Don't quite know what to do But this feeling is so true You got me feeling so high Feeling like I could fly My desire is slowly building My heart that I've been shielding I'm slowly letting go Staying with the flow The way you touch this body of mine Sends chills up and down my spine My breath gets deeper My screams get louder Closer I come to the edge of it all Faster and faster by body begins to fall Your love closes in around me This is how its meant to be The passion of my desire Stronger grows the fire That lives inside of

There are times I wish I could make go away. Times better off erased. Delinquish the past from all minds and be gone the thoughts of pain, anger, and hatred. Unintended lust, unknown passion, undeserved emotions of the heart. I cast away all the bad and request that only good can come. No longer killing the hearts of the ones who really care. To put a stop to the lashing out. The constant battle of words and wit. The guilt slowly bleeding my heart of all emotions. The anger refusing to let go. My walls crumbling to a dull nothingness in my mind. I call for the power to end the pain. To stop hurting those around me, to stop killing myself insi